Even when you don’t want them to, things change. & as much as you want them to go back to how they were, they don’t.
Things were so perfect. So. Perfect. We spent every day together, every second together. I couldn’t have been more happy. Everything I ever wanted, I finally had. Now, I don’t even know you. We don’t even talk. And when we do, it’s so different. I can’t stand it. I hate talking to you now. I want the old back. The old you, the old us. I know you wanted it as bad as I did. I know you loved it as much as I did. I know you saw everything exactly the way I did. So why..
Why couldn’t you just admit it? Just be ready for it? Why couldn’t you just accept the happiness? Was it too much for you? Was everything too perfect?
I don’t know. I’ll never know. All I know is..
I miss you, we miss you.
Maybe one day we’ll meet again and be ready for the beauty we could create together, experience together.
Until then, I hope you well. & I’m here for you whenever you need me.
only seveeeeeeen fucking days! ..or less. i can’t wait to meet you, my beautiful little baby boy. please hurry and get here so i can love you with all my freaking heart. <3 you’re going to be so amazing. i can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with youuu. ahhhhhh. i couldn’t be more excited! i love you so much already. i can only imagine what it’ll be like to hold your precious little body in my arms for the first time! i can’t wait to see your daddy hold you for the first time either. these moments will be priceless. i’m counting down the seconds. i love you, baby.
“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.”—Chuck Palahniuk (via graceisred)